This puts it all into words perfectly. They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis". It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself, what you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.
You are insecure and then secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you.
You love someone very much and cannot express it because of the fear of rejection. They get married to someone else and at that time, you don't understand why you couldn't express it because you are not a bad person to live with.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that almost everyone relates to it. Everyone have their best of times and their worst of times, trying as hard as they can to figure this whole thing out.
It's just to let you know that you are not alone in the state of confusion.
25 July 2006
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11 comments:
Nice thoughts... Very Realistic..
This is good.
tq both of u :)
im glad u liked it!
I'm rite there with u TS. It feels like the whole world's burden is on our shoulders isn't it ? Growin up isn't exactly fun., atleast it doesnt look like it now. N i totally empathise with u on the last 10 lines or so. Good write up. Good thoughts.
last 10 lines..... i had to re-read my blog :D
anyways THX...im glad u liked it! :)
wow u'v got some amazing writing skills, im really impresses the way u'v bloggd. wel thnx for ur comment jus one thing, how do u know about SQE. Now u have got a regular reader of ur blog!!!!
being a hardcore google fan..
I applied for SQE, few months back..
cldnt clear all the rounds though...
but im glad...i went up till tht stage..
hello ma'm,the thoughts reflected here are very realistic n i could feel a sense of emotion while i was reading it..gr8 gng gal..n ur thoughts abt friends n ppl we hav met are really gud..
THX....
->Intro-to-life-and-its-dynamics@me
->RAHUL
-> SUNDeR
Lovely-ly written... I could relate to most of it. :)
tq
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